When did you first decide that you wanted to get into modeling?

I never decided. It happened by itself. Never did I see myself as a model, rather anything but. I used to work at goth and fetish clubs, and photographers would always ask to take my photo. From there, they asked me to partake in photoshoots. Some of these shoots turned into paid sets, and publications. Then it came to a point where people were saying that I needed a website to showcase my work. More photo work came in, I ended up on a few covers, and the rest is history.

What were you like in high school? Where you into anything in particular like retro fashion, Goth culture or punk rock music?

I was a loner, but the small crowd I hung out with, I guess people labeled us as the "freaks". We were a mixture of goth, psychobilly,punk, etc. My hair was every color of the rainbow, I wore alot of fishnets and tights, and I had more piercings than I do now. I enjoyed singing just as much as I do now, but I was in Show, Chamber, Madrigal, and Concert choir, Drama, and was also Editor in Chief of the Literary Magazine. So I guess I was kinda nerdy at the same time, but no different than I am now.

My parents were constantly dragged into the pricipals and counceling office, because some lame teachers thought that I was severely depressed or on drugs, and they based this on the way that I looked. Of course I wasn't on drugs, but perhaps I had heavier depths of depression all throughout middle and high school.

Some people may look at you and other models in the adult/fetish community and automatically assume the worst like broken home, fucked up child hood.Why do you think that there are so many misconceptions surrounding adult entertainers? I for one do what I do for the love of pinup art not for fast cash.

Quite often they are right, and I share the same opinion. I feel that 90% of the time it is true that most of the people in the adult and fetish scene have unfortunately encountered some forms of abuse.

Me, I am in the 10% and was fortunate enough not to experience this. However, not to sound like I am flattering myself or anything, but I grew up in a very normal household. Both my parents are intelligent and amazing people. I am very greatful and suprised that they put up with so much of my shit.

Though I was a 4.0 Ace student in GATE classes, I was constantly getting into trouble. I was always in OCD (on campus detention), Saturday School, fist fights, etc. The reason for this was I naturally had problems with depression, as early as middle school. I had low self esteem and I got picked on alot by girls. They would always say that I was ugly, and that I didn't have nice clothes, and my nickname was "Medusa". I The girl harassment started when I was 5y/o, and it lasted until I got to high school. I became a tomboy and remain one till this day (don't let the makeup, corsets, and heels fool you.).

Most of my friends were boys, and its like so today. By the end of middle school, my temper weared, and after getting jumped a couple of times, I started to defend myself. I must have beat up a good dozen or so girls in my lifetime, hahahahahaha!! When I got to high school, they knew better not to fuck with me, so instead they would talk shit behind my back, and tried to be my friend at the same time. It didn't bother me much, because whenever I got in their faces, they would back off like scared little bitches.

Presently, I have few female friends, because it is very difficult for me to trust girls. Most of the time they are up to no good, and are secretly jealous, gossiping behind your back, or trying to seduce your boyfriend. I don't have time for that shit, so the girls I do hang with, are tomboyish and trustworthy like myself, but you could never guess by looking at them. I like hanging out with guys mainly, but my girlfriends enjoy the same things I do such as playing video games, recording music, etc.

Do you think that women in this industry get labeled to quickly?

It depends on what type of modeling, etc. they are doing. But this world labels all people, thats just the way it is.

Ex: People naturally assume because I am willing to pose nude that I must have had a laundry list of sexual partners. Whats your take on it?

Well most of the time this is true, just as I stated in my previous response. However there is a small percentage that are just normal oldfashioned people who enjoy doing photos as a hobby. Take me for example, I have a boyfriend I have been with for almost 3 years. We are in a commited, monogamous relationship, and it is going to stay this way, because my morals haven't changed and never will. If I am in a relationship, I never cheat, I think its pointless and stupid for people to do so. They shouldn't be in a relationship if they are going to act like that.

When you first began did you ever have a problem with sleazy photographers?

No, never. Most photographers are really nice guys who know better than to violate models. I am sure there are some photographers who use their camera to get laid, but that has never happened to me. But I do see it happen to other models I know. Though I am a nice person, I have a temper, and I think the photographers with "hidden agendas" are too scared because they know I will knock them out. Hahahahahaha! J/K

Well a few months ago, I lost trust in a photographer, because he started to make me feel uncomfortable, I could tell by the way he looked at me and the dumb questions he would ask me. Never again will I work with this psycho, and he knows who he is. I have enough decency not to mention his name.

Why do you think, the fetish scene in LA is such a tight nit community which is pretty hard to break into? What is your advice for young girls pursuing modeling?

Its not so much tight nit, but everyone knows everyone. I would prefer to call it cut throat. I only do photos as a hobby, if I am getting free clothes, corsets, latex, published in a magainze, or getting paid. I have no other reasons for doing this because there are too many snobby assholes that make it unenjoyable and competitive. But in one ear and out the other.

I don't live in the fetish community, because I have a normal life aside from this. I have a M-F job, a boyfriend, a family, and friends who I enjoy spending time with. I would rather be sitting at home playing video games all night instead of standing around at a club holding a drink in my hand, deciding whether or not I am going to shoot with a certain photographer. I rarely go out to the fetish/goth clubs, maybe once every month or two.

Do you feel that there is a cap for how far you can go in this business since Skin Two is at the top of fetish magazines? And, you've already got the cover and worked with very prominent photographers. For instance for someone trying to make it in a mainstream medium the sky is the limit Vogue, MTV

Whatever covers, publications, etc. I have been in just happened by itself. I do not try to get photoshoots, I am usually approached by photographers. Actually I don't take it seriously, and like I said, I only endup doing it if I get something out of it.

My website is just a vamp tool to seduct and lure photogs, and others who are willing to pay me with either clothing, publications, or money for my time in posing for photos. Unlike most other models, I am not trying to become famous or the next "horror icon". Give me a fucking break hahahahaha!! If it ever does happen (which I highly doubt) then it will happen on its own, not because I forced it.

Whats in your CD player right now?

Pseudo Echo

Do you have any regrets?

Plenty

Have you noticed all the gossip and catty attitudes amongst models or is that just a myth?

Hahahahaha! Of course!! I hear and see it all the time, about other models I know. Some deserve it and some don't, and usually more than half the time the gossip is true. Its so fucking pathetic and lame how some people are so hateful, jealous and envious.

 I don't deal with that shit, and if someone is going to do gossip or harass me via email, forums, etc, of course I will defend my self verbally and respond to them, because I am not afraid to defend myself, and I don't believe in "Turning the other Cheek" or "Ignoring" like they taught me in elementary school. Somehow the rumour about me "beating people up" and "having a temper/snapping" ended up getting around, and I will not deny that it is true.

Shit, I've got nothing to hide. But I guess certain people know better not to fuck with me, otherwise if and when I see them (and this has happened before) it ends up in a physical match. I have yet to shove a keyboard up someones ass, HAHAHAHAHA!

Whats the last concert you went to?

Duran Duran and I nearly had a heart attack. Not being allowed to run after Simon Lebon, John Taylor, and Nick Rhodes was a challenge. Like dangling a steak in front of a dog behind a chain linked fence.

Trent Reznor or Marilyn Manson? If you could um Well you fill in the blanks?

If I could what?? Say it.......spit it out!!! Hahahaha. Actually if I had a chance to record a song with Trent I would definetly do so.

Have you ever considered working with bands for cover art or music videos?

Actually I have, but for small named bands. Blag Dahlia from the Dwarves put some of my photos on their site and says he is interested in using me for more upcomming stuff. But I don't know when that will be. I am in the "Mistake" video by the Horror Pops.

Youre a licensed esthetician? Give us some detail to what you do at work?

 Currently I work at a laser skin care center, and I do consultations with new patients, for laser and other treatments including Botox, Restylane, Hylaform, etc. I also assist in the treatments, if needed. Basically I manage the front office, usually they need licensed medical estheticians educated on the physiology of the skin because this type of medical enviorment is very different from the "Spa" atmosphere.

Spas are more for luxury and facials, where as a medical laser facility is an enviorment with estheticians, Doctors, Registered Nurses, and medical assistants. Sometimes it is highly stressful, especially when I have worked for dermatologists that were pricks. I have worked for 3 different laser skin care centers, and my administrative background is strong. So I combine my knowledge with my skills and abilities to fullfill my obligations at my work. Its only to pay the bills. If I could stay at home all day and play XBox I would!

So, whats your advice for fat Goth girls who wear to much make up and have stretch marks any new medical advancements or are we still just left with cocoa butter?

Everyone in this scene wears makeup, and you can never wear enough. Makeup is fun and glamours and this scene should be about art and music, not the drama that others create around it.

What would you say if I told you youre a role model to young women across the world? Girls that are in Junior High watching documentaries of the Black Dahlia and Charlie Manson. Girls, that are told there ugly because they choose not to wear Gap and American Eagle. How does that make you feel?

I think its funny, because in no way shape or form do I see myself as a "role model", and rather anything but! Hahahahaha!! I am true to myself and I doubt they are being told they are ugly for wearing the opposite of Gap and American Eagle, because there are so many posers these days its ridiculous. You can find Hot Topic style shirts at Target. Infact one of my nieces bought a Ramones shirt at a Walmart. What is this world comming to?? Hahahahahaha!

If you could give any advice to a young girl who just got her heart broke for the first time what would it be?

Don't get into any relationships until you are over the age of 21. If you have a boyfriend, make sure he is at least over 26 years old, because guys don't mature until this age. Once a cheater, always a cheater, and get the fuck out as soon as it happends. If a guy hits you, get the fuck out, he will never change and has no respect for women.Don't ever let a guy tell you what do do, who to be, or what to wear, or anyone else for that matter.

Find someone who makes you laugh more than they make you cry. A true lover and boyfriend is also a true friend, and will be there for you during your good times and bad, regardless of how much money you have, how big your chest or ass is, or how much weight you gain or loose.

And if a guy is with you for almost 3 years straight without breaking up once, without cheating, then you know he is the one. Live life and don't get into a relationship until you know deep in your heart that you have found "the one". And yes, love at first sight is real.

Are you single? Plans of kids in the future?

I haven't been single for almost 3 years. I only want one child, but not until I am 50. Hahahahahaha!! I have too many things going on in my life and a child requires 100% attention and your wallet. Besides I have plenty of nieces and nephews, and thats good enough for now.,

Will you marry me?

(J/K but its good stuff for the viewers to know that I support you.)

*puts head in lap, and cheeks redden like a shy 5 year old girl*